A Thousand Dresses

Hi everyone!

So sorry I’ve been so detached from this blog lately, but super excited to announce that my personal essay was just published on Thought Catalog (TC)!

The essay recounts my experience with losing a close friend to child marriage in India. Here’s the link to read it:

http://thoughtcatalog.com/pooja-chandrashekar/2014/07/this-is-a-story-about-a-thousand-dresses/

Enjoy :) And tell me what you think!

-pc

This is just to say that I am officially going to back on this blog in 2 weeks (after APs!) so stay tuned for more writing/poetry/thoughts from yours truly!

Just a sidenote,but I’m staring out my window right now and my neighbor’s tree is East Coast scarlet and it’s in the shape of a heart, which is absolutely adorable. Not sure it that was intended, though… Same neighbor who repainted their door like five times with shades of hot pink, flaming orange, black, and peach before they finally settled on bright red. Anyways..okay this was so off tangent

Ahh wish me luck on APs!!

~pc 

Pray

The smoke curls gently around her fingers
Leering around the skin
Pressing at the flesh
Biting away at the soul

Life darts too fast
Hides too quickly
Lies scattered between the dust of the yawning stars
Falls too quickly from the treetops

The candle glows faintly in the darkness
The red fire speckling the tart yellow of the flame
It is a mesmerizing sight
A holy sight

Two hands
Two palms
Lie cupped together
Pressed against each other so deeply, so intimately

The flavor of the smoke begins to fade
Leaving only a pattern of wisps behind
They decorate the palms
Like soft gray henna

Wishes and desires are coiled around the fingers
Tucked into the crevices between them
Wishes are too strong, desires are too deep
But the pale silky texture of the smoke
Never quite leaves the skin untouched

Her head is bowed
Weighed down perhaps by the strength of her own pain
But yet her hands never quite unfold
Never quite mask the wishes she has buried within herself
Only to release them
When she brings the two hands apart

But she will never

Leave thoughts in the comments below! :) ~pc

Coming Up

Hi everyone! I’ve been super busy lately and am going to be even busier in the coming two months so I’m really sorry for my lack of posting! It’s hard to believe junior year is almost over, but it sure is hectic (but fun hectic)! I’ve barely got time to think about stuff other than school, academic commitments, flying between states for competitions, and organizing a large-scale event in my community. So this isn’t a writing-blog post…I’m not really sure what this is…more like a rant / stress reliever? As fun as it is to travel coast-to-coast and do a bunch of organization singlehandedly, it’s super tiring! But it’s weird because it’s a happy kind of tired. Okay I should be studying for my bio quiz…or contacting sponsors…or working on science fair :) ciao for a couple months guys ~pc

French Doors

Hi everyone and Happy Valentine’s Day! Sorry for my lack of posting recently, but here’s a little poem that’s quite appropriate for V-day since it’s about love, though it’s perhaps a bit on the sad side. Please tell me what you think of it in the comments and enjoy! -pc

French Doors

I. Untouched

Her head rests gently
On the little red cushion
Blooming fresh color into her rough skin
Skin of a thousand chipped swords
That had all broken somewhere
Deep down inside of her

The crimson of the cushion is but a handful
Of the blood that courses through her yawning veins
Filling up her body, softening her bones
But leaving only her soul
Untouched

II. Imagination

Bright yellow buttercups fragrance the air
With their moist sunset dew
Wafting through her French doors
Those doors she swung open
Last Sunday
To fling herself
Into the crispness
Into the eloquence
Of the buttery morning air

She used to love
Running her broken hands
Along those doors and imagine them
Ambling down the cobblestone streets
Together

Imagination is a glorious thing, no?

III. Remembrance

Her golden braids hanging down loose and straight
Down her back, caressing her neck
Flying behind her as she ran
Ran past grassy fields and stone-topped shops
The ones with painted bells that jingled when
She swung open the doors

Windows to her youth thrust open in her mind
And scenes of young love and sweet sin
Flit past her yawning eyes
Now merely black-and-white memories tucked away
Beneath her waning eyelids

IV. Innocence

She used to love kicking her wet shoes off and dancing in the rain
Tilting her head back
Letting the water touch her bare skin
But that was when she was madly,
Passionately in love with the world

That was back when she believed in love
When she liked its bitterness so much
She forgot how tasteless it really was

Back when her unbroken innocence
Forced her into implicitly trusting everyone
And everything
When she did not care whose arms she flung herself into
As she swung open the doors
When she did not care whose eyes she found herself staring wide-eyed into
Amidst the delicate waltz of the raindrops

And yet somehow it was always the same eyes, the same arms

V. Closing

And now with a deep sigh
That seemed to echo into every cobwebbed corner
She rises from the red cushion
As if to swing open the old French doors once again
And welcome the unfaltering rays back into the room

But instead
For one last time
She closes them

He Cries with You

Heavenly tears spring fast from the darkening blanket wound tightly around the sky

I run my bruised hand slowly over my cheeks caressed with the wet embrace

The crystal droplets winding their way down past my eyes, mixing with the salty streaks

Lovers separated lie weeping, broken hearts ceaselessly brimming

Standing in their windows and staring aimlessly past the street lights that burn brightly in the darkness

Watching the rain snake crazed patterns on the panes

Tracing the lines etched by the water with shaking fingertips

Quiet fires chasing away the pain and adding to the despair

Hope, the thing with feathers, lies broken like shattered pieces of porcelain

Words escape these young minds

That only look to the past, reliving the memories

Those abandoned black-and-white memories that haunt the weathered pages of their hearts

Their eyes are left to watch the distraught eyes of heaven

Those eyes that cry of reading the pages of unrequited passions

Those eyes that cry of seeing her slipping away from his aging mind

Those eyes that cry of writing their destiny

And They see it all

And cry

- pc

I wrote this poem a little while ago when it was raining as a sad ode to rain and love. Tell me what you think in the comments and enjoy!

Still

If it was ever tangible, so real that its fruit dangled in front of your eyes, would you still stretch an arm to pluck it from its place? To separate it from its crooning branch that so firmly clasped it to its chest?

If it was so enchantingly glorious that the world rejoiced in plethora, in recognition of the excess that brought it to every wavering palm, would you close your hand around it? Would you still shut your eyes and smile silently to nobody but yourself?

If the moments of agony were no longer daggers but a sword of rose petals, would you still throw open the doors to greet the frightful knights that surrounded your palace? Would you still coerce the enemy into fighting a cruel gory battle with you?

If it spoke in a faint high voice that streaked through the crystal and was so clear you could see your reflection in its clarity, would you still find the beauty in the opaque? Would you still while away your listless moments in wonder, in strange guessing games it led you into?

If it was any of these, would you still call it love?

- pc

Tell me what you think of my writing and the poem in the comments!

2014: A New Year, A New Blog

Happy New Year! 

A new year seemed like the perfect time to make a new blog and make a resolution to keep it updated and running throughout the year, a feat I have yet to accomplish with my other blogs. And it seemed especially pertinent since 2014 is such a big important year for me personally and with everything going on and stress levels projected to scale new heights in the upcoming months, I figured I needed some way to keep writing. 2014 is the year I’ll be applying to college, so you can probably identify with me to some extent.

You may be wondering what this blog is about and what the title, ‘Dreams of Stardust’, refers to. As you might have guessed, this is a writing blog, a chance for me to share my thoughts and ideas with you in the form of wonderfully tangible words. Now the title, to me, is a summation of what dreams and hopes are made of. Stardust is magical, sparkles as it catches the stuttering rays of light, but disintegrates just as quick as sand if let go of.

Tell me what you think of me, my blog, or the blog title in the comments below! Oh, and almost all the pictures I post on this blog will not be created by me.

- pc